melancholic

last few days here :(
will go back to reality again this sunday :)) cheer up , being in such melancholic is not the way ..
i got my marks alrdy , just viewed it from uni's website last night ;PP
3As and 3Bs . well , is it satisfying ? im just feeling grateful for it . at least im not disappointing my parents . will do better again next sem :DD left one marks left -- my history , the worst part .im not sure wht it will be =.= i just can pray and pray .. hope the marks will release soon .. and satisfying :P

being in such melancholy recently =.=
somehow im thinking , am i lack of confidence or how , i dont know actually did i do well or the teacher is too kind in giving the marks .. hmmmm ... too bad if i keep thinking this way .. confidence , i really need youuu :S how can i get it ?!!
then , im quite successful in hiding every feelings in my heart , but failed to express it .. :(
i just keep it inside , no one knws wht problems am i having , dunno im thinking too much on my pride or how . thing i need to do is share rgt ? share it outt .. im too fear of ppl thots . i knw that all of their comments are for my own sake , but there are still uncomfortable feelings after i heard it ..
is this wht ppl sd " ai ia mai su " hmm .. im dealing wth that since long" time ago .
i do hate comparison . oh , please , everyone has his/ her own ability , how can ppl judge :S
dont u knw everyone has stuggled to the max , but u just simply blurted out words that made someone down .

had a small reunion wth x-classmates last sunday , after a year :)
another semester is coming soon , sem4 , time really flies as i glimpse my eyes . it had been a year as a university student :) somehow wanna go back to my HS time , where burdens , lame thoughts , problems in making decisions are not that much ,, but yea .. life goes on :))

im truly grateful with wht i have now ,
but human being will never satisfy :)
keep up the good work and all the best :)

latest news :
the highest mountain in north sumatera,Sinabung had erupted two days ago
hope everyone there be resilient in facing that calamity
god bless u everyone :)
these days , be alert guys , approaching to the muslim's feast day , ppl are thinking to have a shortcut in earning money . beware :)

have a nice day ppl :)
god bless :)