Dana Glover - It Is You (I Have Loved)

There is something that I see
In the way you look at me
There's a smile, there's a truth in your eyes

But an unexpected way
On this unexpected day
Could it mean this is where I belong
It is you I have loved all along

It's no more mystery
It is finally clear to me
You're the home my heart searched for so long
And it is you I have loved all along

There were times I ran to hide
Afraid to show the other side
Alone in the night without you

But now I know just who you are
And I know you hold my heart
Finally this is where I belong
It is you I have loved all along

It's no more mystery
It is finally clear to me
You're the home my heart searched for so long
And it is you I have loved all along

Over and over
I'm filled with emotion
Your love, it rushes through my veins

And I am filled
With the sweetest devotion
As I, I look into your perfect face

It's no more mystery
It is finally clear to me
You're the home my heart searched for so long
And it is you I have loved
It is you I have loved
It is you I have loved all along

end of holiday :(

hola fellas !

I'm going back to medan tomorrow . How i wish i could stay longer .. but, reality is always approaching sooner or later . keep dwelling in no-purpose-of-life ,it's not called L-I-F-E . I'm having too much fun these days . really .. too MUCH ! passing day by day without worries, grieves and sorrows. Everything is just FUN !

In Life, There are few purposes of life to be granted , and one of them is we-live-to-EAT . As what i mentioned in the post before , i came here to EAT and there's no DIET,this 4 letters content in this trip dictionary . haha . i dont i knw whether i shud be glad or sorrow .. one sentence i think , Let's get FATTER then ..

During this trip , really want to thanks so many ppl .. Thanks to my dear uncle for the lodging at his house , my dear aunt for accompanying me to do " shopping" ,and Last thanks is to katak :D thank you for accompanying and bringing us to such a *boring* place ---> gading :PP well , not that boring actually . haha . getting used to it though :P Thank you for bringing us to hang around . I felt bit guilty actually, for a particular reason , i cant play til too late ,which caused him to send me home earlier than the time for usual teenager's hanging out time .
Thanks much ! had a great trip this time :D wish to have another trip again :D

♥ jakarta ♥

jakarta , met up with everyone here :) granny , aunts, uncles, cousins ..

Ironically , we just met up once in a year . such a pity isnt it ? Everyone is staying in Jakarta , while left my mom and fam dwelling in Medan .
Jakarta, such a crowded city with jammed everywhere . but , i think im getting used to it now , haha . Ever once popped out in my mind a plan to stay here right after i graduate , find a job here , and dwell here . But it's just too much consideration .. bad habit of mine : think too much :D

Recently , i did outing with my aunt , whch is always great :P girls do love shopping :)) family gathering celebrating one of my cousin's bday . Met up wth ex-roomate , Eny & Medan's friend , Vien :) Hanging around wth one of my uni' s friends , Thanks alot pak Robby . kwka ..
Thing i did most here is EAT . i ate everything that is edible :DD it's just such a pleasure to be here . well , i still need to hang around here until 25th november ..

Im messed up with my granny and aunt's question , and even my mom ..' keep asking me whether im in relationship or not ' ..haha . Well , when someone does outing is it always seemed like one is having relationship ? doesnt seemed so right ? i just had a lecture on that topic last night and guess, it's from my granny .haha . sounds weird ? well, i know , they're hoping for the best for me :) im just ashamed on it . My aunt just called me and she said she and my mom gossiped about me this morning . what theee .... hohoho .. i dont know , and i dont want to think about it . let go , by the time , it'll come by itself :D
trying to post another post when i got appropiate time *sok sibuk mode:ON* hihi :D

upcoming holiday :D

i think i played too much recently . Obviously , too much . right after having those devastating exams , music mates are stressed out which everyone turned out to create a so-called 'one day' plan . we dont need to prepare an exact schedule to have a trip . Once everyone say YES then we GO :D :D :D

Such an exhausted week actually , We had 'ladies day outing' and went out for a whole day , geez , ladiess .. haha .. i met up with my former teachers too right after that :)) one day elapsed , the next day , we were bounding to GENTING . haha . well , somehow plans are not flowing as what it shud be . but ,overall it's a nice trip though. Spending time enjoying the environment there, feeling the fresh air there . it's simply nice and do made me satisfied enough . I would like to play the amusement park games too actually , but it'll be much more complete if i can play them wth my peers .. How i wish we can have it one day . i do miss moments with them . but with the lack of timetable resemblance , im wondering when we can gather up again like we used to be ..

Fun time always elapse faster , hmm .. welcoming the so-called 2 months holiday :D

anyw, going to enjoy the exact holiday tomorrow , Jakarta , im coming :D
hope can meet up wth everyone there :)
everyone , enjoy your holiday :D
well , once my vocal teacher reminded me ' holiday doesnt mean it's a big fullstop , ur learning journey must keep progressing ' when she said so , it made me feels a bit guilty actually , reckless me , i used to forgot everything that i've learned during holiday . but, will try my best teacher ! :D im struggling to do well too next semester ..

From now on , I wont curse myself anymore , starting with stop complaining , stop blaming , etc . People does made mistakes , and that's why we are called human beings , nobody is perfect . Trying to neglect people's bad opinions and trying just to be good . Life is about treating someone good and trying not to hurt anybone .. then u're safe :) May God bless everyone the whole way thru .. Treat past as lessons , hopefully one wont do the same mistakes ..
being indifferent always be part of me , is it good or bad actually ? haha . im not sure too . just let it be :) myb it will change once im stepping years ahead . One who knows me well probably shud be accustomed to it . haha . Sorry ..

another jury to face :)

I've done with those tasks :D
left one , the most terrifying one after all , my JURY .
well , i just need to survive in that 20 minutes and i'll be alright . but within that 20 minutes , im not sure what feeling will burst inside .. i just hope my nervousness wont kill me by that time .
about yesterday exams , listening was killing me . it's just tough ! damn . The written test was quite okay actually , not that arduous :D , i just hope i can pass it , so i wont waste my time retake again :)) Chamber assessment , well , i have done my best . that's all :)

feeling a bit emo lately :(
i dont know what's wrong , the effect of feeling lonely probably ..
but , my family , they are always there for me .. my friends , yeah, they are always surrounding me too .. :) big thanks to them :DD

anything left ? i know and u know :)
somehow , it's kinda dissapointing when someone just looked for u when they're lonely or when they got trouble .. other than that ? hell though . Indeed , myb im one of them too , so they treated me so as well . nothing i can do , well , just let time heal every pains ,hurts and grudges .

what a profound thoughts lyrics :

Wish I could be the one
The one who could give you love
The kind of love you really need
Wish I could say to you
That I'll always stay with you
But baby that's not me
You need someone willing to give their heart and soul to you
Promise you forever, baby that's something I can't do
Oh I could say that I'll be all you need
But that would be a lie
I know I'd only hurt you
I know I'd only make you cry
I'm not the one you're needing
I love you, goodbye
I hope someday you can
Find some way to understand I'm only doing this for you
I don't really wanna go
But deep in my heart I know this is the kindest thing to do
You'll need someone who'll be the one that I could never be
Who'll give you something better
Than the love you'll find with me
Oh I could say that I'll be all you need
But that would be a crime
I know I'd only hurt you
I know I'd only make you cry
I'm not the one you're needing
I love you, goodbye
Leaving someone when you love someone
Is the hardest thing to do
When you love someone as much as I love you
Oh I don't wanna leave you
Baby it tears me up inside
But I'll never be the one you're needing
I love you, goodbye
Baby, its never gonna work out
I love you, goodbye

..try to let go , let it be , if it's meant to be , nothing to be regretted ..

approaching final :S

long time didnt blog :D

really going to be crazy soon ! dealing with all the subjects really gonna make me stressed up .

approaching things to do :
CME coaching
( left 2 times before assessment )
Term paper submission
** hopefully i've done 2 pages , left 4 pages ! gonna screw it up soon , ganbatte ! i CAN do it ! duedate : FRIDAY **
Technique assessment
* MONDAY * scales , nothing i can do , besides practice , practice and practice
CME assessment
will be held within these two days ( Monday and Tuesday )
HISTORY FINAL EXAM
exactly on 19th october 2010 .
the most terrifying exam, im really on the verge of death :
JURY 2
it's the hardest of all , i do really hope i can make it ! one word to describe " HARD " :(
assess on the same day with Choir concert
25th october 2010

and THAT's the LAST DAY of everything , everything dealt in this hectic SHORT SEMESTER..

what a tiring semester , hmm ..
i will be free by that time and will start to posting again :D
wish me luck !
i really need encouragements and motivations .
i really hope i can do well , even it's tough .
endeavouring for a better result ,
i'll do anything for it !

ps : going to jakarta on 3rd november 2010 ! yihaa :D
before those happiness approaching , i really have to deal with those miserable thingy !

october ♥

and it's october !

2 months to go to the end of 2010 ! woo ..
why time has to passed this quick while i still want to enjoy my uni's life . while , i still dont want to face the ' REAL LIFE ' , dont want to feel what graduation is .

indeed , Even its tough , but nothing is tougher than the real life . am i right ?

i still want to learn more , learn learn and learn ..
i think im not ready to face the world , face the society .
well, i knw that my life is not bed of roses . all those situation like taking decisions , mingling with society , dealing with people etc , they will come by the time . whether u're ready or not ! that's the toughest part . hmm ..

continue tomorrow :)

saturday thoughts

many things happened to few of my friends recently .

guys , Jia you !!
life always has it's ups and downs
expecting too much while it doesn't turn as what it should be might be kinda frustated
but, everything happens for a purpose :)
may GOD bless them with whatever decisions that they made
hugs and kisses for them , xoxo ..


for those who are going to have exam soon , all the best !
all the best for me too
mid term on tuesday .
wish me luck !
how the time flies as i glimpsed my eyes
nearly approaching october !

LIFE GOES ON

♥

dedicated to few of my 'good friends' out there :)

mid autumn festival :)

greet u guys , happy belated mid-autumn festival:)
♥ 中秋節快樂 ♥

medan in action :)

joseph just uploaded those pictures , haha . thanks bro :)

having fun time in hometown :)

those times are just unreplaceable ,
sharing time together ,
sharing jokes,laughter and joyfulness of friendship .
see you guys again :)




celebrating ameng's birthday bash !
happy 19th birthday :))



BBQ time :) a day before i left ..

i found photo of the month :)
sweet birthday surprise , isn't it ?
all the best meng !

time

time, please flow faster ...

i took few pics of myself today :DD
narciscm in action :P

silly face :P

tomorrow will be a hectic day
well , get prepared jess :)
all the best !
classes early in the morning
welcome back :)

bored to the max

and today it's saturday ..

saturday , most ppl do love weekends rgt ? so am i .
but not for this lonely saturday :S
im home alone til tomorrow .. my housemate wil b back tmrw .
im just leisuring, sit up straight infornt of my lovely laptop half day on this gloomy saturday , of course after i settled dwn my things , i got pile of dirty clothes to wash ( fortunately, i've done half ) :D , tidy up my messy room , and practice piano , this one shud not be forgotten :D

i attended a recital yesterday night , a duo recital , by Mr.Julian Jacobson and Ms.Teo Li Chin . one word for them AWESOME . they played so vigorously, really represent every characters inside those pieces .. im wondering when i would be able to play like them .

trying to motivate myself , trying to do my best , encourage myself to be a better one :))

question of the day :
what to eat now ?! pusing ! haha .
makan aja kok ribet yaaa ?

ni hao :)

too lazy to post sth now
im just thinking to settle up everything soon

get done with all my pieces
focus my mind in all subjects in this two months
stop playing around
no more holiday
be strong and catch up every single lessons !
jia you :)

:)

take care and all the best :)
see you again

have faith in doing everything
God wont give any burden out of his/her control :)

Glad :D

im glad :D

glad with every happenings in my life :D
really feel gratitude of it

in this life , trials are inevitably ,there are always ups and downs ,
depends from what side that you treat tht trials
treat it as a lesson , and everything will be alright :)

what a day!

im gonna crazy soon , too many things happened today .

i just catched up with my friend in KL , classes had started two days ago , but im still having fun here, Medan . stressed up !! i shud not take the decision to go on trip this semm . my goodness . if i miss 2 attendances in choir class it will cause me failed . i dont how it works . then , ill have quizes everyweek , i havent prepared my CME pieces again , having jury this sem again . damn CRAZY ! am i the one who is too over ? i never miss classes for this long . week 4 is going to be my mid term exam , while, ill be bck in week 3 . u c , how dare am i ?!

one word for another case : RELIEVED .
such a good ques that can ruined up my day , THANK YOU :)
i just dont knw how's later on , but if we are meant to be . let's God do what he had planned .

mommy, mommyy... im so sorry , but how . do u want to see ur daughter failed just bcz of absences on classes ? it's just not worth ... i supposed to be not joining u guys .. i dont knw what will happen later , the trip is next weekk.. i do hope dad will joinn us :(

preparing my stuffs for this sunday , going back !

melancholic

last few days here :(
will go back to reality again this sunday :)) cheer up , being in such melancholic is not the way ..
i got my marks alrdy , just viewed it from uni's website last night ;PP
3As and 3Bs . well , is it satisfying ? im just feeling grateful for it . at least im not disappointing my parents . will do better again next sem :DD left one marks left -- my history , the worst part .im not sure wht it will be =.= i just can pray and pray .. hope the marks will release soon .. and satisfying :P

being in such melancholy recently =.=
somehow im thinking , am i lack of confidence or how , i dont know actually did i do well or the teacher is too kind in giving the marks .. hmmmm ... too bad if i keep thinking this way .. confidence , i really need youuu :S how can i get it ?!!
then , im quite successful in hiding every feelings in my heart , but failed to express it .. :(
i just keep it inside , no one knws wht problems am i having , dunno im thinking too much on my pride or how . thing i need to do is share rgt ? share it outt .. im too fear of ppl thots . i knw that all of their comments are for my own sake , but there are still uncomfortable feelings after i heard it ..
is this wht ppl sd " ai ia mai su " hmm .. im dealing wth that since long" time ago .
i do hate comparison . oh , please , everyone has his/ her own ability , how can ppl judge :S
dont u knw everyone has stuggled to the max , but u just simply blurted out words that made someone down .

had a small reunion wth x-classmates last sunday , after a year :)
another semester is coming soon , sem4 , time really flies as i glimpse my eyes . it had been a year as a university student :) somehow wanna go back to my HS time , where burdens , lame thoughts , problems in making decisions are not that much ,, but yea .. life goes on :))

im truly grateful with wht i have now ,
but human being will never satisfy :)
keep up the good work and all the best :)

latest news :
the highest mountain in north sumatera,Sinabung had erupted two days ago
hope everyone there be resilient in facing that calamity
god bless u everyone :)
these days , be alert guys , approaching to the muslim's feast day , ppl are thinking to have a shortcut in earning money . beware :)

have a nice day ppl :)
god bless :)

Gemini

Cewek Gemini biasanya berpenampilan menarik, dengan kepandaian hebat, wanita yang sangat menarik. Ia bergerak cepat dan ia tidak dapat duduk atau berdiri diam dalam jangka waktu lama. Ia mampu melakukan banyak hal dan melakukannya secepat mungkin. Jika anda berkencan dengannya, mungkin anda akan merasa merasa sedang berkencan dengan banyak wanita pada saat yang bersamaan. Anda tidak akan dapat mengikatnya dengan kata "Cinta", karena ia peduli dengan cinta, tetapi hal itu bukanlah faktor utama dalam kehidupannya. Anda harus dapatmenyesuaikan diri denganya supaya anda dapat mengenal banyak karakter yang dimilikinya. Ia adalah wanita pemimpi yang memiliki banyak impian. Ia selalu ingin belajar mengenai sesuatu yang baru setiap saat.

Walaupun dia memiliki karakter 2 in 1, ia cukup beruntung dalam hal cinta. Untuk mengejarnya, anda harus mengerahkan semua kemampuan anda. Bahkan ketika dia sudah menyukai anda dan terpesona oleh kemampuan anda, ia juga akan melihat dan menyelidiki sisi buruk anda, karena hal ini adalah sifat alaminya.

Ia mampu menangani semua macam emosi yang campur aduk tanpa harus mengganggu atau memperlihatkannya kepada anda. Ia dapat membuat anda gembira dengan bersikap layaknya seekor burung kecil. Perbincangan dengannya tidak akan membosankan anda. Ia mampu berbicara dengan anda mengenai topik apapun.

Dia akan mampu membuat anda merasa menjadi cowok paling beruntung di dunia. Dia mampu membuat anda merasa bahwa ia membutuhkan semua perhatian anda, tetapi begitu dia ingin sendrian, dia mampu berdiri teguh dan tenang. Ia dapat menjadi teman baik anda dan berbicara kepadanya mengenai apapun.

Ia dapat mengikuti semua aktifitas anda dengan energi yang sama seperti yang anda punya. Ia adalah orang dengan pemikiran dan kemampuan belajar yang cepat. Ia dapat melihat arah proyek anda dan dia dapat memberi nasihat yang sangat baik. Jika dia berpikir bahwa anda tidak menginginkan dirinya hanya untuk anda, maka ia hanya akan bertindaklayaknya teman baik anda saja, seorang wanita yang "cool".

Ia dapat dengan mudah membuat seorang pria jatuh cinta kepadanya. Moodnya yang selalu berubah adalah "pesona" bagi banyak pria. Ia dapat saja tertawa terbahak-bahak selama 2 menit dan kemudian terdiam membisu. Ia ingin hanya menemukan 1 cinta sejati saja, dan ia ingin menemui pria idamannya. Ia berharap banyak, bahkan terkadang terlalu banyak.

Ia selalu menunggu kedatangan seorgan "kesatria tampan" bahkan pada saat ia telah memiliki seorang pacar. Ia bisa saja jatuh cinta atau menyukai orang lain pada saat bersama dengan anda. Jikaanda putus dengannya, ia tidak akan lupa dalam jangka waktu pendek, karena perubahan adalah sifat alaminya.

Wanita gemini lebih banyak menyakiti hati pria daripada wanita zodiak lainnya. Karena dia seorang pemimpi dan selalu menunggu kedatangan kesatria tampannya, maka kehidupan cintanya benar- benar rumit atau bahkan berantakan. Ia tidak pernah suka menulis surat panjang lebar, jadi jika anda menulis surat, dan ingin mendapat jawaban secepatnya dari dia, jangan pernah berharap banyak.

Karena dia memiliki kepribadian berganda dan banyak ide, maka ia tidak suka untuk menuliskannya. Karena ia tahu, bahwa ia berpikir, hari ini dan besok belum tentu sama. Ia dapat berkomunikasi dalam lebih dari 1 bahasa, seseorang dengan bakat linguistik luar biasa. Jika ia ingin mengatakan komentar buruk kepada anda, dia tidak akan mengatakannya langsung.

Tetapi ia akan mengatakan kengenai banyak hal, dan secara tidak sengaja akan mencapai subyek yang ingin dicapainya tanpa menyinggung anda. Biasanya dia tidak akan berbohong. Ia akan bekerja keras dan sekali-kali akan mengambil istirahat panjang. Ia tidak pernah merasa puas dengan kondisi kerjanya sekarang, dengan uang, atau reputasinya sekarang, ia selalu ingin mendapat lebih lagi.

Jangan pernah tanyakan dia, apa sebenarnya hal yang bisa-bisa memenuhi semua keinginannya, karena dia tidak akan pernah menjawab. Begitu anda mengenal dia, dia akan menjadi orang yang mendukung dan selalu siap disamping anda. Ia memiliki impian yang indah, dan ia menginginkan adanya orang yang memiliki keinginan dan kemampuan yang sama dengannya, yang akan selalu bersama mendampingi dia.

new hair cut anyw :)

i had my hair cut last two days :P
i've transformed my hair from the long one to shorter one :)
im just getting bored with that long style ..

before :

after :

haha .. which one looks nicer ? :)
whatsoever :) will just let it grow again ..

hometown craziness :D

im in my loveliest hometown ever now , MEDAN :P

recently i did not do any posting because the limitation of time to online here , lebay and sok sibuk mode : ON . haha .
well , these days , im just hanging around , and eat till i drop . i ate everything that is provided . im gonna be a well-rounded , big fatty lady if i keep eating that much . i wnt to do sports , but those laziness really drive me crazy ,,

i've been a week here, time flies as i glimpse my eyes here and im gonna back to my hectic uni life in 2 weeks time . well, its not exactly 2 weeks ( smirking ;P) im going to have a trip with my fam again , next 2 weeks while it's closer the verge of the Idul Fitri, the celebration for the Muslims , my parents n bro , aunt n fam and granny will have holidays during those days. :PP

hanging around with friends , it's exhilarating :DD nothing is much pleasure than this being in hometown. go for dinner, chit chat , gossips , tell jokes, bully and quip each other, well ..it's just nice .
for those who are strieving , strieving for anything , good luck for u guysss :)) semangat !! :))

peng you :)

im here to share bits of my thots :)

things in my mind now are :

i felt sorry to hear about the news of one of my buddies , abrokee , well , everything will gonna be alrght dear , time will heal everything , just be patient k . it's difficult to forgt someone whom u're deeply love . well , it's very common thing . hope u'll gt better soon :)

for anitto , wkak .
all the best for u yee :) make something that can mk ehem" melt til drop .haha .
wish u luck here ,haha . i do salute wth everything that u've done . it's GREAT ! haha . well , im not going to compliment u again , later ur head will get bigger and bigger ..

for athaiso , hoyy . congrats man ! :P ga sia" lu jauh" menimba ilmu .haha . best wishes for u guys too :PPP i think we shud go somewhr to eat ! and u knw whr it is .. u shud have known the road well .. haha ..

for aeltspo , haha . good luck for ur ielts tomorrow , good luck , do everything slowly but sure :P
best wishes for u madame ::)))

for asicko , hey , hv u recovered ? i'll be back next two days ..haha . let's hang around! haha ..

life is unpredictable , we never knw what is going to happen later . if it's the decision that u have made then whatever risk that u met , u have to endure . do u prefer to get hurt now or later ? it's the same ,u're getting hurt too , it's just the matter of time .

im using initials here to avoid the leaking of privacy ( broken english) :P
it just sounds cute ,whateverr .haha ..

" don't judge a book by its cover " not every outer appearance represents their inner .
this applies to anything . but, im talking about my friends actually :PP
not in terms to compliment them , but just saying the truth .haha
i know them . they're my childhood friends , and it has been a long time we mingle together, from seeing them wearing red skirts/pants until now we as a university students ..
they're not as what people assumed ,although they always look mischievous , but deeply in their heart , they're different .. but am i too praising them ? haha . whatever , im just saying the truth though . i just salute with them from the way they love someone , keep up the good work guysss :PP
and remember , i always welcome every single invitations that send to my house :PPP
and , im here whenever u guys need :DD

i do heart them :)
it's just a pleasure to know each of them in my life ,
thank you for being my friends .

missing them lately ..

university life :)

i just love being a university student .

well , even it's tough but it's part of life that u wont feel in another pace of life .
school time also great , but school time , we're still under control of everything that we did.
uni's life ,im not talking about being freedom , but it's just different .
i do everything what is the best for me , being independent in doing everything .
even im really exhausted with things that happened in uni's life , the studies, things to prepare , the packed schedule , but it'll always be part of uni's life ..

i had my history exam in exam hall just now , i felt the environment . hundreds of ppl pursuing their subject to pass the exam .everyone is struggling .
well , im not that confident that i can pass that , but everything has passed , i had done my best .
i'll just let God take the rest ..

heihoh ! memories !

topic of the day : im looking ways to beautify my blog :S

feels so envy wth those who have nice BLOG :(
haha ..

maybe i have to learn it from expert though , their blog are just GREAT !

sharing my thoughts here * just want to speak out :(( *

what is he doing now ?
did he ever think of me ?
all those songs are representing my feelings .. did he knw ?
those days were just left as memories .
im just not being good :( too bad .
hurting his feeling was things that i always did.
nothing i can do now ..
i just dont want to recapitulate any same mistakes that i've ever did.
even it's tough , but i just can endure :(

and all those reminiscence , it's just too difficult to forget
Things wont change , it will just remained as memories ..

did i need to be shame of everything that i had done ?
shame to tell him ? can we be good friends ?
can i act as nothing ever happened before ?
may i ? may i demolish every single bad thoughts in his mind ?
im too cruel that time rgt ?
im really sorry ..
that's all i can say ,

My Love is Here - Erik Santos

Yiruma - Passing by

hello :)

hi . long time didn't blog . quite lots of stuffs to do recently ..
my term paper , final exams :S
brutal , everything has begunn , all the best :)
will do blogging again after i settle everything ,
wish me luck ! all the besT !
jia youu !!

done with recital , quizes :))

things ahead are still a bundle . always think to end it up soon, settle everything earlier . then i can have a break . but howw , i even dont know how to start it . it's too confusing ,,
im lazy to post sth now , will continue it next time k ? :)

have a blessed day everyone , and may God always take care of everyyone in this world .

have a good care of urself , god won't give obstacles that is out of your capability :))

do well in everything :)

tomorrow will be a better day :)

day 2 : we at jonker street malacca

this are WE , the last day , after winning the gold medal in Badminton :D

Me with the double women,Mira and Venna :))

eat , eat and eat :D Jonker street in action :DDD

after a tiring whole day in the badminton court , we stil have pose to tk pic . LOL

early morning infrnt of the hostel we are staying :))

infront of the red house :))

really wish to go there again , malacca is the kingdom of foods :S
everything is cheap and tasty there ..
will visit there again another timeee ...hhaaa ..

THAT GUY !

i read someone blog today . hmmph ..

well , that guy is just too stupid !
how can he forgot that simple thing that he ever said !
he said simple thing that according to girls it is "GREAT "
what dee ..
actually if she told him now, it also makes no sense at all , how can she told him .
things that she can do is just keep it . keep it .. and keep it until she forgot that feeling .
frankly , it's difficult to forget someone ..

well , girls ..
girl's heart is just too fragile, so easily get touched by words .
which it's a BIG BIG problem .

it needs a lot of consideration , in terms to start everything .
are girls thinking too much ?
then , why can guy so easily move on while girls are still in proggress to move on ?
isnt it too cruel for girls ?

another case ,
still about too easy to move on , within a few week trip without his gf , guy can change a lot ..
how can girls really trust them ? aren't they dont have enough faith in their commitment ?

i heard lots of stories about this thingy recently . hmmphh ...

THEY NEVER THINK OF GIRLS FEELING !
guys, do whatever u want but make sure dont u ever hurt girls feeling .
and GIRLS , pls take care of ur heart ..

thoughts :P

im thinking to shorten my hair soon .
just quite bored with my hairstyle now ..
sometimes i want this long curly hair , but my hair eventually will grow rgt ?
why don't i cut it short then let it grow later ....

i wish to have one as hers too :

its easier to take care i think , and will look tidier than long hair ..
hope can make up my mind soon as i arv my hometown ,
really wish to be there ASAP !!

hope my exam schedule end sooner , then i cn go bck earlierrr ..

yippieee !! hhaaaa ...

19th birthday pics :D

edited by adel :)

1st bday cake in 19th :))

with my housemate , Stella and dinda :)

with indonesian gang :)

2nd cake in 19th :P from music mates :))

sharing out the BIG smile :D

daily within this week

recently i did 2 volunteers work as crew in two different sections .
one is in Cecilia Yap charity concert .
it was hold on 4th july , exactly last week .
it's a voice concert for charity .
Cecilia Yap is one of best classical vocalist in Kuala Lumpur , and frankly , She is a GREAT vocalist .
She reached the high notes without any falsetto and she uses a FABULOUS breathing technique .
She sang lots of arias from different composers , famous Operas .
each of us has being given its task to settle , i took part in the first second row of the hall , and i just need to SHARE out my biggest smile and told all the audience the available seats . although its tiring to stand for hours but its truly fun :D adding my experience as an usher in concerts .

another task ,,
it's today . i joined the tzuchi bazaar for charity , it took place near the Sungai Wang mall , it was hold from 9am until 3pm ..
i took part as an usher to there , giving out the souvenirs and flyers to every single person who came to the charity bazaar , it was not only charity bazaar was hold , it was also a performing platform to the students who has lesson there . they offer a lot of courses there, u can have violin class, gu zheng , yoga, paperclay even patchwork course there .

although it took lots of energy to stand for almost whole day , but it's great to share time with all of the ppl there , they're friendly and kind-hearted . all the ppl there are so caring .. they didnt differ one to another , they just treat everyone same as their family , being part if it . it seem to part of journey of my life . really felt gratitude to every single person there , God may have planned to me for meeting them in my life :)

will keep adding colour to my life :DD
in life there are too many things to understand , solve and love .
solve every problem with more open-hearted , things aprroaching us now is just a small part of things ahead :)

nothing special

yes , nothing special for this week ..
i started to cook already , even it's didnt taste so tasty but , its stil edible :))
trying to console myself :PP

term paper ,
it's all about BACH French, italian and German style .
really have to do it asap ,. the due date is on the verge of the door now .
less than 3 weeks to complete everything .
as u do it sooner , the more relief u shud be .
well , lets settle down everything as quick as posiible .

things coming ahead :

-history quiz again

-CME assesment

-recital

-term paper due date

-english diction practical
-final exams

and dats all , go back to HOMETOWN !
ENJOY !!
hhaaa ..

blogging ..

i do love blogging , but isnt it too expose for our privacy life ? :)
but it's the purpose to have a blog, letting go every problems by pouring it to a simple post .
and it's the easiest way to let go every obstacles that u met just by typing *.*..

i love english <3 <3 .
especially words and vocabulary ..
it's just quite envying when i c others ( read : ppl ) using such great words and vocab .enhancement is really needed in this

time keeps running ..
it's monday again , approaching 2nd week of july soonn ..
hope everything will start sooner so i can end it earlier too .

JULY :)

it's 1st of july .
well , all uni's stuffs has getting closer to its due date , all exams , term paper duedate , CME final assesments , everything ..it's a month to go ..

time will fly . u wont realize it that it's almost weekend alrdy . it has been a week my trip to SG gathering with every single chums there ..

what de heck ! suddenly feel really pissed off now . let GO !! out of my minddd .. hmm ..
be good .

exhilirating :D

well , i didnt blog recently ,
im quite busy with all my uni's stuffs , mid term has started since last week ,
and time passed quickly , i ended my last mid term today , history and aural practical .
i didnt wish to obtain really high marks actually , things that i did , was just did my best :))

it's quite free today :) felt really relieved after everything , even life still goes on , but i really need a break . the whole busy stuffs really ruined up my whole weeek .
as ppl said , " bersedih2dahulu , bersenang2 kemudian " . this quote really works for my circumtances now .haha ..

im going to SG again this friday :P * again * >.<
hahaha ...
meet all my friends , watch concert , well . that's all i will do there , wl b back on sunday ..
hmm .. i've to settle down everything bfr i go , i got one piece to be memorized , then there is a history QUIZ *again * on thursday .. what thee ... we just done our midterm this morning , and we're going to have another quiz in next two days ...
but i knw , it's for our own sake ,
Dr.Jeff ( my history lecturer ) mentioned before , if he didnt give any quizes then that bundle of books none of us will touch it . haha ..

i dont want to think much , just go with the flow :))
things that supposed to be done is what i've been chosen :)
this is my path , ENJOY !!

exam week ..

GO GO GOoo ...
mid term weeks have started ,, done with english diction and theory midterm ..
preparing for aural and history midterm .. hmm ..
hope i can do it well :))

continue laterr ..:))

TUESDAY

it's not good to always think those bad thingy that i mentioned yesterday .
it's not worth to let it stay in my brain any longer .
STOP IT !

i really thank you those who always concern with me , i really feel grateful for it ,
while im thinking they're always be with me whenever im down, i just hope they will
always be there for me .. that's what friends are for :))


hmm ..
it's tuesday again , of cz it's tuesday again , our earth keeps spinning right , time also keeps
turning . silly words always come out , everytime im typing without anything to be mentioned .

did i post my blog about my teacher's visit to KL recently ?
i doubt so , well , let's have a story telling here , ( lebay mode :ON )
actually we just went round and round , round til u drop , round the whole bukit bintang shopping centre . we didnt miss any of them . one word to describe : FUN :))

in front of pavilion :)

tired after shop, shop :P

im considering to publish my blog in FB or not , haha
this is considering my privacy being publish or not too actually .haha .

perplexing :(

really contemplating of what im doing now ..

what am i good at ? spending money ? being lazy ?
im out of my control now , my mind keep thinking useless things
everything that is bad .. everything .
i dont know .
im too afraid that im not doing good , a hatred feeling of always being compared is one of my biggest fear .

im fear of opinion , fear of every opinions that actually is good for me ,
a stubborn character that is always occur whenever i know im not doing well ,
a feeling that always want to win , dont want to hear what others are thinking .
always thinking that im the one who is right , though actually im not .
im truly confessing my real character here .

im just envying those who are able to do everything , and jealousy is one of my tons of PROBLEMS !

im fear that i cant be succesful one day ,
it's just not enough !
sometimes i hate myself , i keep saying things, but i never work it out .

does anyone feel the same as me ? i dont knoww !! this feeling is just too bad .
im out of idea now , what can i do ?

they always do well , they can make their parents proud of them . ME ?!
what can i do ?
they're always good . many ppl love them . do care of them too . everything is just GOOD !

BIRTHDAY blast :D

hi , im officially 19th now :)
day by day passed by ..
everything goes so rapidly as we glimpse our eyes .

really thanks every single of my chums :)
im a having a great birthday blast on my last teenage year here :)
approaching head of 2 next year . hmm ..

adding a year :))
learn from the past , try not to take anything for granted , be good :)

thanks to them who celebrated my birthday :)
showed up at midnight and showed up again in last hour :P
really thank u guys for adding such a colourful once in a lifetime bday in my life :)
do really appreciate itt:)
lots of love ♥ ♥ ♥

me v indonesian gang :))
celebrating my bday blast ! haha ..

no idea

hello and goodyee ...

no party that never end

after meeting everyone there , it's time to back to reality
spending time with friends will always be a fun thing to do ever
togetherness :)

spending time with them was just too less
conclusion :
human being is never satisfy

thanks to :
Paulina Lim ,
Winnie Lie ,
Christine you ,
Irwan Chalis ,
David Suryadi .
thanks for everything :)

Wishing my dearest friend , Winnie Lie too ..
" Happy birthday "
may all her dreams come true and be a succesfull woman in the future :)

there's nothing special for this week , everything goes as what is should be
i will try my best to accept any challenging pieces
hmm .. i gotta make it !!

not in terms of showing off, but , that's the way you can enhance ur skills
by accepting any chances to be better .

confession :(

hi ,
activities that i did for this week , hmm ..

watched ip man ( cool )

having piano lesson as usual
having history quizes as usual
having all usual activities ..
arrival of my another housemate , ENNY
A sweet 17th bday surprise for STELLA, my housemate
a bday celebration

well ..

i had fun more than i studied :(

doing assignments , study , practice it's not enough if u just do it if u're in MOOD !!
remember that !

im wasting a lot of my time without doing anything . too many chit chat with friends .that 's all i did recently . haha . damn !

im lonely :((

i dunno i shud think this kind of things or not ,
i just felt, i need someone .
ya, someone ...
someone who i can lay back on
someone who can hear my thoughts
someone who can always be there for me
someone who can understand me
someone who can care with me
someone who can text me 'what am i doing ,what class am i having'
someone who can cheer me up when im stressed out

am i ready to get another relationship
it's tough =.=

im just envying those ppl in taiwanese and korean drama ::
how can they make such a sweet drama
is it happen in reality too ?
i dont think so .

sometimes it's just nice to being single . but ....hmm ..

** watch too much dramas **
hmm .. im thinking too much again :(

anyW, going to SG this thursday :) meeting up with criz pau and win .
ly has gone back to medan . irwan also in medan , jebud also .
hmm .. im going in inappropiate time :(
but at least i' going to meet them soon :))

do well :)

all i can do is just be good .

missing my parents deeply now :(

be good without making them worrying me too much
make them proud

i ♥ them

Go Green :D

sharing a bit about my recent activity here :)

Well , i joined tzu chi recycle activity last sunday , i was pretty tired that day but i was amazed too with this activity, this was my first time doing recycle ( directly ), indeed ,usually all i can do is just read an article from magazines about it, but last sunday i did it my self , even i have to sacrifice my sleeping time on sunday ,but i felt it's worth , i went there early in the morning , coz they said we've to gather there @7.15 . hmm .. sunday , and i have to wk up that early . nice isnt it ? haha ..

arvd there , all the useless things were categorized neatly there , they are categorized into 5 sections : plastics, papers , cardboards , cans , and clothes .. i took part in the papers section.
papers was differentiate into 2 kinds : the coloured & the black and white paper .
and things that we have to do is seperate the paper .

At that time , i realized , the more paper we use the more trees were cut down . and when there 's no more trees ,im wondering how our earth will survive .. hmm ..

lesson that i got from it :

use our paper wisely ,
try to diminish our usage of things to reduce the rubbish ,
try not to use the polysterene and plastic bags ,
try to bring ur own lunch box if u want to take away foods .

that's all that i try to apply it in my daily life . and , im trying to cook myself now, besides, it's more frugal to eat at home , rather then always buy meals outside and more hygiene , this is definitely :))

good lesson for all of us to learn something from it .

in progress to manage my time well and use it wisely :))

Jia you ,Jess :))

hi :)

hello . long time didnt do any blogging . too many activitiies recently .haha .

recently, i had a trip to penang :DD
what a trip :P we planned it not even for a week , they said go then go . haha..
we looked like truly a bunch of backpackers there . we just looking for hotels there , without any booking list , im wondering if we didnt get hotel on the day where we wl slp .haha ..
(lebay mode:ON)
having a trip to Batu feringgi , beach side , we went there nearly midnght and it's nice there where no one in the beach just left 8 of us . enjoying the wind, the noise of the waves .. how i wish i could still be there now , out of all the reality to face , i love beach :)))
2nd day we went to town . good bye beach :( it's too less time that i spent there .
well , eat .eat and eat . it's my purpose to go there :DDD

then joined the tzuchi activity celebrating mother's day . Wesak day and the anniversary of tzuchi organization ion KL . it's a long day actually , got up early in the morning and started to help there at 9 am :)) it;s nice , i love it .haha .. even at last it's super duper tiring but , it's still a nice experience

iron man

watched iron man 2 yesterday . it's a great MOVIE .
2 thumbs up for the effects . and wondering Robert John Downey Jr is so charming there and Scarlett Johansson , she's gorgeous , ..

anyW , the concert choir audition opened its registration again ,haha . i filled in my name :P i just try for fun , if i can pass then good, if cant maybe have to put more efforts during voice class and wait for january audition ..

had my history class and theory class ths morning , well .. everything has just embarked . hmm.. quizes every week , it seems it's a good start :S ..
eventually , everyone shud pass this course , and , sooner or later i still have to face this subject . well , just do my best then :)

not so in the mood today , do re mi fa so la ti doooooo ......