♥ jakarta ♥

jakarta , met up with everyone here :) granny , aunts, uncles, cousins ..

Ironically , we just met up once in a year . such a pity isnt it ? Everyone is staying in Jakarta , while left my mom and fam dwelling in Medan .
Jakarta, such a crowded city with jammed everywhere . but , i think im getting used to it now , haha . Ever once popped out in my mind a plan to stay here right after i graduate , find a job here , and dwell here . But it's just too much consideration .. bad habit of mine : think too much :D

Recently , i did outing with my aunt , whch is always great :P girls do love shopping :)) family gathering celebrating one of my cousin's bday . Met up wth ex-roomate , Eny & Medan's friend , Vien :) Hanging around wth one of my uni' s friends , Thanks alot pak Robby . kwka ..
Thing i did most here is EAT . i ate everything that is edible :DD it's just such a pleasure to be here . well , i still need to hang around here until 25th november ..

Im messed up with my granny and aunt's question , and even my mom ..' keep asking me whether im in relationship or not ' ..haha . Well , when someone does outing is it always seemed like one is having relationship ? doesnt seemed so right ? i just had a lecture on that topic last night and guess, it's from my granny .haha . sounds weird ? well, i know , they're hoping for the best for me :) im just ashamed on it . My aunt just called me and she said she and my mom gossiped about me this morning . what theee .... hohoho .. i dont know , and i dont want to think about it . let go , by the time , it'll come by itself :D
trying to post another post when i got appropiate time *sok sibuk mode:ON* hihi :D

upcoming holiday :D

i think i played too much recently . Obviously , too much . right after having those devastating exams , music mates are stressed out which everyone turned out to create a so-called 'one day' plan . we dont need to prepare an exact schedule to have a trip . Once everyone say YES then we GO :D :D :D

Such an exhausted week actually , We had 'ladies day outing' and went out for a whole day , geez , ladiess .. haha .. i met up with my former teachers too right after that :)) one day elapsed , the next day , we were bounding to GENTING . haha . well , somehow plans are not flowing as what it shud be . but ,overall it's a nice trip though. Spending time enjoying the environment there, feeling the fresh air there . it's simply nice and do made me satisfied enough . I would like to play the amusement park games too actually , but it'll be much more complete if i can play them wth my peers .. How i wish we can have it one day . i do miss moments with them . but with the lack of timetable resemblance , im wondering when we can gather up again like we used to be ..

Fun time always elapse faster , hmm .. welcoming the so-called 2 months holiday :D

anyw, going to enjoy the exact holiday tomorrow , Jakarta , im coming :D
hope can meet up wth everyone there :)
everyone , enjoy your holiday :D
well , once my vocal teacher reminded me ' holiday doesnt mean it's a big fullstop , ur learning journey must keep progressing ' when she said so , it made me feels a bit guilty actually , reckless me , i used to forgot everything that i've learned during holiday . but, will try my best teacher ! :D im struggling to do well too next semester ..

From now on , I wont curse myself anymore , starting with stop complaining , stop blaming , etc . People does made mistakes , and that's why we are called human beings , nobody is perfect . Trying to neglect people's bad opinions and trying just to be good . Life is about treating someone good and trying not to hurt anybone .. then u're safe :) May God bless everyone the whole way thru .. Treat past as lessons , hopefully one wont do the same mistakes ..
being indifferent always be part of me , is it good or bad actually ? haha . im not sure too . just let it be :) myb it will change once im stepping years ahead . One who knows me well probably shud be accustomed to it . haha . Sorry ..

another jury to face :)

I've done with those tasks :D
left one , the most terrifying one after all , my JURY .
well , i just need to survive in that 20 minutes and i'll be alright . but within that 20 minutes , im not sure what feeling will burst inside .. i just hope my nervousness wont kill me by that time .
about yesterday exams , listening was killing me . it's just tough ! damn . The written test was quite okay actually , not that arduous :D , i just hope i can pass it , so i wont waste my time retake again :)) Chamber assessment , well , i have done my best . that's all :)

feeling a bit emo lately :(
i dont know what's wrong , the effect of feeling lonely probably ..
but , my family , they are always there for me .. my friends , yeah, they are always surrounding me too .. :) big thanks to them :DD

anything left ? i know and u know :)
somehow , it's kinda dissapointing when someone just looked for u when they're lonely or when they got trouble .. other than that ? hell though . Indeed , myb im one of them too , so they treated me so as well . nothing i can do , well , just let time heal every pains ,hurts and grudges .

what a profound thoughts lyrics :

Wish I could be the one
The one who could give you love
The kind of love you really need
Wish I could say to you
That I'll always stay with you
But baby that's not me
You need someone willing to give their heart and soul to you
Promise you forever, baby that's something I can't do
Oh I could say that I'll be all you need
But that would be a lie
I know I'd only hurt you
I know I'd only make you cry
I'm not the one you're needing
I love you, goodbye
I hope someday you can
Find some way to understand I'm only doing this for you
I don't really wanna go
But deep in my heart I know this is the kindest thing to do
You'll need someone who'll be the one that I could never be
Who'll give you something better
Than the love you'll find with me
Oh I could say that I'll be all you need
But that would be a crime
I know I'd only hurt you
I know I'd only make you cry
I'm not the one you're needing
I love you, goodbye
Leaving someone when you love someone
Is the hardest thing to do
When you love someone as much as I love you
Oh I don't wanna leave you
Baby it tears me up inside
But I'll never be the one you're needing
I love you, goodbye
Baby, its never gonna work out
I love you, goodbye

..try to let go , let it be , if it's meant to be , nothing to be regretted ..

approaching final :S

long time didnt blog :D

really going to be crazy soon ! dealing with all the subjects really gonna make me stressed up .

approaching things to do :
CME coaching
( left 2 times before assessment )
Term paper submission
** hopefully i've done 2 pages , left 4 pages ! gonna screw it up soon , ganbatte ! i CAN do it ! duedate : FRIDAY **
Technique assessment
* MONDAY * scales , nothing i can do , besides practice , practice and practice
CME assessment
will be held within these two days ( Monday and Tuesday )
HISTORY FINAL EXAM
exactly on 19th october 2010 .
the most terrifying exam, im really on the verge of death :
JURY 2
it's the hardest of all , i do really hope i can make it ! one word to describe " HARD " :(
assess on the same day with Choir concert
25th october 2010

and THAT's the LAST DAY of everything , everything dealt in this hectic SHORT SEMESTER..

what a tiring semester , hmm ..
i will be free by that time and will start to posting again :D
wish me luck !
i really need encouragements and motivations .
i really hope i can do well , even it's tough .
endeavouring for a better result ,
i'll do anything for it !

ps : going to jakarta on 3rd november 2010 ! yihaa :D
before those happiness approaching , i really have to deal with those miserable thingy !

october ♥

and it's october !

2 months to go to the end of 2010 ! woo ..
why time has to passed this quick while i still want to enjoy my uni's life . while , i still dont want to face the ' REAL LIFE ' , dont want to feel what graduation is .

indeed , Even its tough , but nothing is tougher than the real life . am i right ?

i still want to learn more , learn learn and learn ..
i think im not ready to face the world , face the society .
well, i knw that my life is not bed of roses . all those situation like taking decisions , mingling with society , dealing with people etc , they will come by the time . whether u're ready or not ! that's the toughest part . hmm ..

continue tomorrow :)

saturday thoughts

many things happened to few of my friends recently .

guys , Jia you !!
life always has it's ups and downs
expecting too much while it doesn't turn as what it should be might be kinda frustated
but, everything happens for a purpose :)
may GOD bless them with whatever decisions that they made
hugs and kisses for them , xoxo ..


for those who are going to have exam soon , all the best !
all the best for me too
mid term on tuesday .
wish me luck !
how the time flies as i glimpsed my eyes
nearly approaching october !

LIFE GOES ON

♥

dedicated to few of my 'good friends' out there :)

mid autumn festival :)

greet u guys , happy belated mid-autumn festival:)
♥ 中秋節快樂 ♥