another jury to face :)

I've done with those tasks :D
left one , the most terrifying one after all , my JURY .
well , i just need to survive in that 20 minutes and i'll be alright . but within that 20 minutes , im not sure what feeling will burst inside .. i just hope my nervousness wont kill me by that time .
about yesterday exams , listening was killing me . it's just tough ! damn . The written test was quite okay actually , not that arduous :D , i just hope i can pass it , so i wont waste my time retake again :)) Chamber assessment , well , i have done my best . that's all :)

feeling a bit emo lately :(
i dont know what's wrong , the effect of feeling lonely probably ..
but , my family , they are always there for me .. my friends , yeah, they are always surrounding me too .. :) big thanks to them :DD

anything left ? i know and u know :)
somehow , it's kinda dissapointing when someone just looked for u when they're lonely or when they got trouble .. other than that ? hell though . Indeed , myb im one of them too , so they treated me so as well . nothing i can do , well , just let time heal every pains ,hurts and grudges .

what a profound thoughts lyrics :

Wish I could be the one
The one who could give you love
The kind of love you really need
Wish I could say to you
That I'll always stay with you
But baby that's not me
You need someone willing to give their heart and soul to you
Promise you forever, baby that's something I can't do
Oh I could say that I'll be all you need
But that would be a lie
I know I'd only hurt you
I know I'd only make you cry
I'm not the one you're needing
I love you, goodbye
I hope someday you can
Find some way to understand I'm only doing this for you
I don't really wanna go
But deep in my heart I know this is the kindest thing to do
You'll need someone who'll be the one that I could never be
Who'll give you something better
Than the love you'll find with me
Oh I could say that I'll be all you need
But that would be a crime
I know I'd only hurt you
I know I'd only make you cry
I'm not the one you're needing
I love you, goodbye
Leaving someone when you love someone
Is the hardest thing to do
When you love someone as much as I love you
Oh I don't wanna leave you
Baby it tears me up inside
But I'll never be the one you're needing
I love you, goodbye
Baby, its never gonna work out
I love you, goodbye

..try to let go , let it be , if it's meant to be , nothing to be regretted ..

approaching final :S

long time didnt blog :D

really going to be crazy soon ! dealing with all the subjects really gonna make me stressed up .

approaching things to do :
CME coaching
( left 2 times before assessment )
Term paper submission
** hopefully i've done 2 pages , left 4 pages ! gonna screw it up soon , ganbatte ! i CAN do it ! duedate : FRIDAY **
Technique assessment
* MONDAY * scales , nothing i can do , besides practice , practice and practice
CME assessment
will be held within these two days ( Monday and Tuesday )
HISTORY FINAL EXAM
exactly on 19th october 2010 .
the most terrifying exam, im really on the verge of death :
JURY 2
it's the hardest of all , i do really hope i can make it ! one word to describe " HARD " :(
assess on the same day with Choir concert
25th october 2010

and THAT's the LAST DAY of everything , everything dealt in this hectic SHORT SEMESTER..

what a tiring semester , hmm ..
i will be free by that time and will start to posting again :D
wish me luck !
i really need encouragements and motivations .
i really hope i can do well , even it's tough .
endeavouring for a better result ,
i'll do anything for it !

ps : going to jakarta on 3rd november 2010 ! yihaa :D
before those happiness approaching , i really have to deal with those miserable thingy !

october ♥

and it's october !

2 months to go to the end of 2010 ! woo ..
why time has to passed this quick while i still want to enjoy my uni's life . while , i still dont want to face the ' REAL LIFE ' , dont want to feel what graduation is .

indeed , Even its tough , but nothing is tougher than the real life . am i right ?

i still want to learn more , learn learn and learn ..
i think im not ready to face the world , face the society .
well, i knw that my life is not bed of roses . all those situation like taking decisions , mingling with society , dealing with people etc , they will come by the time . whether u're ready or not ! that's the toughest part . hmm ..

continue tomorrow :)